is this really happening?

I feel like a jerk.

I probably am.

I'm so confused.

I must say...I love my sister.

"Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." -1 Corinthians 15:58

You're about to make me lose what i've been working my whole life to maintain.